When
you see your “favorite band” live, it is an event humming with anticipation
from you and annoyance from your friends and loved ones. Your heart is beating
irregular palpitations. You talk about the impending show here and there,
randomly inserting the event into casual conversation that has nothing to do
with said favorite band. “Let’s go get some food.” “Sure. Let’s get some Taco
Bell. Maybe we can get Taco Bell on the way to the [insert your favorite band]
show, too, later this month!” You play the hell out of their songs loudly, in
marathon fashion.
This
was how Radiohead was supposed to play out for me. They are my favorite band,
who wrote my favorite song of all time (“Paranoid Android”) and my favorite
albums of the last two decades (OK
Computer from the 90s, In Rainbows
/ Kid A from the 00s, though which is
depending on the day). This band is a force and they are the band that
introduced me to the power of the internet and blogosphere culture thanks to
how In Rainbows exploded and how intrigued
I was at the way it marketed itself.
When
the Kansas City Radiohead show was announced in November, my life was on an
upswing. I was pumped. I got married that August and I was finishing up my
degree, ready to enter the adult world and live a happy life. I was the
happiest I had ever been then. The Radiohead show felt like the ultimate cherry
on top, a time to let loose and enjoy my favorite songs with tens-of-thousands
of other people. My wife was going, as was one of my roommates. It was going to
be a communal experience.
The
time between November 2011 and March 2012 wasn’t as peachy, though. It wasn’t
particularly traumatic, but reality was settling in. I had a degree and had
finished the most rewarding semester of my entire educational life, but I did
not have a job. I still don’t have a job. I’m afraid of the future. I don’t
know where I will live when my lease comes up since my friends are also
graduating. My wife doesn’t have a career yet either. I thought I’d be able to
get my career started without a hitch, naively I’ll admit. Given the economy,
even my field—education—is experiencing hiring freezes. My future is uncertain,
and that bothers me to no end, to the point where I obsess about how uncertain
my future is which leads to me being unable to focus and do the things I love,
such as writing and reading and listening to new music.
I
was less excited than I thought I would be when March 11th rolled
around. I was excited, certainly, but not as much as I should have been. I
should have been annoying everyone around me. I was actually surprised when the
show was approaching, thinking to myself that it was still a long ways away.
Then the date came around, and our little caravan set out to downtown Kansas
City. I was muted, thinking about other things, thinking about life and what
exactly I was supposed to be doing, being a responsible adult and all, and not
about the mind-blowing experience I was going to have in a few hours.
~
Outside
of the arena, hateful protestors of the worst sort, from the Westboro Baptist
Church from Topeka, Kansas, stood with signs denouncing the fag-lovers
Radiohead and the fans of the fag-lovers. In a press release, interwoven with
some nonsensical scripture jibber-jabber was an accusation that this band was “a
bunch of freak monkey’s with mediocre tunes.” Yes, even with the improperly
used apostrophe. These crack pots are around here and there, at different
shows, sporting events, political rallies, and even sermons, since no brand of
religion is as good as their hateful spew.
I
looked on with cynicism. How could any group of people believe such a hateful
dogma. They pissed me off; their existence pissed me off. I wish I was cool
enough with other opinions to laugh off their beliefs and hate in some sort of
ironic joke. I’m good at spur-of-the-moment jokes, but I couldn’t muster one. I
just thought about how these creeps sit in a congregation and spout hate about
gays and US soldiers and anyone who wasn’t just like them.
.
. .A cult of contrived limitations on oneself and a belief that others need to
do the same or be damned. . .
Forget
that trite, man.
I
entered the Sprint Center in worst spirits than when I had entered.
~
The
show itself:
The
lights went down, the speakers hummed, the crowd cheered. I cheered with them. The
drum machine-bubbles of “Bloom” began. The dual screen backdrop blazed
brightly, featuring smaller screens that added to the personal effect of the
band’s performance. They want you to see, no matter how far away you feel in the
upper balcony of the Sprint Center (as I was). The band, five-members-plus-Portishead-drummer
Clive Deamer on a second drum set, built up a tapestry of sound with a backdrop
of lights. The musicians built on their textures to recreate The King of Limbs highlight for their
live show, and it is most definitely a great version of the song.
“Morning
Mr. Magpie” was extended and sped up, to create a superior version to its album
counterpart. The stage was bathed in red, and Thom York sang/spat with an
intensity that is missing from The King
of Limbs. The syncopation of the instruments created a meditative setlist. Other songs were noticeable sped up, such as “Lotus
Flower” and “Feral,” the latter of which featured a thick, electronic bass line
that shook the upper levels of the Spring Center. “Separator” was also about
album-quality. Thom’s vocals were impassioned as he sang “If you think this is
over then you are wrong” which was appropriate beginning the first encore.
Radiohead
also reached into songs newer than those on their latest album. “Supercollider”
made its first appearance of the tour. Thom pumped his fingers onto his
synthesizer and sang with his usual ethereal vocals, providing a rousing
version of this song. “The Daily Mail” was dedicated to Rupert Murdoch, which
brought about a chorus of boos. Thom laughed and said, “I see he’s become
popular in his old age.” And then the song: as great live as it is in mp3 form,
thick and loud after a quiet piano-led prelude. The other new song was “Identikit”
and it was introduced with Thom talking about how random the day was. He
mentioned the dog outside his hotel keeping him up, as well as obviously
alluding to the Westboro congregation outside of the venue. In keeping with the
randomness, he decided to play a song that has no recorded version yet. They
had been playing “Identikit” throughout the tour, but Thom must have had prior
knowledge of some of the randomness that was about to ensue.
“Identikit”
began with Thom and Ed O’Brien harmonizing with the drummer’s bets, and Clive
Deamer messed up. Thom looked at him and yelled, “Sheeeeit” into his mic.
Everyone applauded Clive, who stood for a bow. Thom admitted that they were “professionals”
and all was in good fun. As they restarted the song, one Thom admits he loves,
they played flawlessly into the song’s bridge/halfway-point and the houselights
came up for no reason. It was random indeed, with Thom returning to play the
synth part the song required with a “What the fuck.” Through the distractions, the song is great and
I’m excited for a recorded version.
Radiohead
played a surprising amount of songs off of In
Rainbows, all featuring Thom’s more seductive vocal performances. Also: “Pyramid
Song” was enthralling and emotional, “There There” was desolate and pounding in
its percussion and proved why it is one of my favorite songs by them, “Myxomatosis”
was a last minute add (replacing the superior “Street Spirit [Fade Out]” from
the setlist) and I was glad they added it—it added a punch to the show and kept
it lively.
The
highlights of the night were the ballads, though. Supposedly, Thom’s voice has
become worse and worse over the years live, and I’ve seen video proof of Thom
lazily singing “Paranoid Android,” but tonight his voice was spot on, and
thanks to its precision, the performance was immersive. On OK Computer great “Lucky” he hit the notes perfectly with the sort
of emotion you get from playing the record loudly—but even more because of the
communion shared with the tens-of-thousands in the audience. “Lucky,” a sermon
on survival and happenstance, felt appropriate. “Everything In Its Right Place”
felt appropriate and all-encompassing and profound. “Idioteque” felt prophetic
and appropriate (“Iceage coming, Iceage coming”). The highlight of it all was “How
To Disappear Completely” which snapped me into focus. More so than any other
song that evening, I felt onstage, floating above everyone, floating with
everyone. It was not a clichéd moment where Thom Yorke was singing to me, but it
was a moment of connection with how I was feeling. My mental funk was something
I wanted to conquer alone, but I know now that it takes moments in the physical
world to define us. Things have to happen for us to be happy, whether we want
it or not. Knowing that I wasn’t the only person who ever wanted to go away and
act in denial of our lives. “I’m not here. This isn’t happening.” Indeed.
The
night ended with two completely different songs to complete the second encore.
First, Thom Yorke and Johnny Greenwood came on stage to play the soft and
choral “Give Up The Ghost.” Thom Yorke looped his own vocals to create a choir
with his own pained voice in a song about death. Watching Thom and Johnny work
together to create a wonderfully apt song, another highlight from The King of Limbs, was lovely. Then the
ever-goofy, but deadly serious “Paranoid Android” ended the evening. Every
Radiohead fan knows the acoustic guitar chords that begin the song, and they
know the spastic break down and that intense riff. But the part of the song
that was the most “appropriate” was the middle section—the hymnal section—where
we all acted like freak monkeys worshiping mediocre tunes, sang along. There
were thousands of belief systems filling the crowd, from young libertarians to
socialists to people who vote for Ralph Nader to atheists to fairly-stringent Catholics
to people who hate fish to people who love fish to those who have bad taste in
movies to film critics to this guy who writes over-thought-and-too-long blog
posts. For those two hours, though, we were all partaking in a different communion,
though, as a mass of like-people, united in our own congregation that night.
SETLIST:
Bloom 15 Step, Morning Mr. Magpie Weird Fishes/Arpeggi
All I Need Pyramid Song The Daily Mail Supercollider Nude Identikit Lotus Flower There There Feral How To Disappear Completely Reckoner Separator Myxomatosis Idioteque Lucky Everything In Its Right Place Give Up The Ghost Paranoid Android
This is the best thing on this site. So well written TJ.
ReplyDeleteI'm sad to tell you those kind of feelings will grow up... and unfortunately at one point, there will be no more Radiohead... Choose the right way man, and most of all, be sure you can change the road you're on. I'm an old lad (almost 47') trying to keep it all together but it's hard. I may be paranoid... but not android.
ReplyDeleteTake care.